On Valentine's Day, Dallin got in the car from Kindergarten, so excited from the party they had.
He then calmed down a little, and said, "Madison got balloons, but no one else did."
I reply, "Oh really, who brought them to her?"
"Her mom gave them to her; one was shaped like a heart."
He continued to hint around that he wished he had a balloon for Valentine's Day. I love when Dallin does this, he just makes me laugh. So I told him we could go to the dollar store and pick one for each of the kids. He has a special love for balloons and always has. I know he loves them so much, because this is his connection to Lincoln. Every birthday in our family, we send at least one balloon to Heaven for our Angel. Dallin has done this since Lincoln's first birthday away from us. (D was 11 months)
Of course, we picked out one for him on Valentine's Day, too. We took it to the cemetery when Halley was done delivering her cute little valentines to her friends. Today, I went for my run over there. I knew it wouldn't have survived the storm yesterday, but it still broke my heart to see it. Flat, covered by snow, still tied to his vase.
Some days are just hard, and I try not to be negative. I want to think of the positive things. The way he laughed, looked at me like I was crazy, wrinkled his nose (my fav), ran away from me, chased me with his arms thrown back, and so many more things! He was perfect in every way, and I just miss him terribly! Each day, I will continue to be so grateful for the knowledge I have that I will see him again.
NO EMPTY CHAIRS
President Ezra Taft Benson said "God intended the family to be eternal. With all my soul, I testify to the truth of that declaration. May he bless us to strengthen our homes and the lives of each family member so that in due time we can report to our Heavenly Father in His celestial home that we are all there--father, mother, sister, brother, all who hold each other dear. Each chair is filled. We are all back home."
It's really interesting that you posted about this today because as I was driving home from school today I started thinking about Lincoln ... don't know why ... and my heart broke once again for you:) I don't know how you live without him everyday and hopefully I never will. Your positive attitude is amazing and you are beautiful. Time really is just a blip in the context of eternity. If you ever need something or someone I'm here.
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Thanks Korie. You are a great friend!
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I think about when you lost Lincoln all the time. I look at my girls and can't even comprehend how hard it must be every day to be without him. You are so strong and such a good mom. You're strength and testimony are so inspiring to me.
ReplyDeleteWhat a sweet story. You practically had me in tears. Lincoln is in our wedding pictures. I was looking through our wedding book the other day with Madi. There's a picture of us outside of the temple with the friends and you're holding Lincoln. It melts my heart every time. I remember going to your apartment in Kaysville and playing with that sweet boy. I don't know how you do it, but I do know you are very strong. Thank goodness for eternal families. Keep that perspective, even on the hard days, which I'm sure will continue to come. How could they not? You're awesome!
ReplyDeleteThanks guys! It feels great to know that others care, but I mostly just need to let out the many feelings I have sometimes. I love you guys!
ReplyDeleteI love you Jess! I love the traditions you have with your kids. I love that you talk about Lincoln and your kids know him and love him too. You have a great family and are a great mother. It's great to know you will see him again soon.
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